Glass half Fuller.

1. Another turning point. Another career milestone. Well, almost. The verdict is out. I won’t be joining the Quake group. Most likely its going to be the Fuller lab. I’ll know by the end of this month. What can I say, I tried my best. Somethings, they are just not meant to be. I’m not sad. Just a wee bit disappointed. And exhausted. But oh well, I tried my best.

2. AA remarked, so whats the big deal. Four years earlier you wanted to do computer science. But you ended up doing Chemical engineering. And you’re happy right. Hmm. True. Guess it all boils down to desiring something and deserving something else.

3. I can’t remember a single time getting exactly what I wanted. Wanted Ruia college. Got Maharashtra college. Wanted Computer science at IIT Bombay. Got Chemical engineering at IIT Madras. Wanted McKinsey. Got Shell. Wanted MIT. Got Stanford.

And now, wanted to join the Quake lab. But I’m not sad. Given a choice, I’d shoot high again. So what if I don’t hit bullseye. I’m at least dreaming big.

… Are you?

Andrea del Sarto 
by Robert Browning

I do what many dream of, all their lives,
–Dream? strive to do, and agonize to do,
And fail in doing. I could count twenty such 
On twice your fingers, and not leave this town,
Who strive–you don’t know how the others strive 
To paint a little thing like that you smeared

I, painting from myself and to myself,
Know what I do, am unmoved by men’s blame 
Or their praise either. Somebody remarks 
Morello’s outline there is wrongly traced, 
His hue mistaken; what of that? or else, 
Rightly traced and well ordered; what of that? 
Speak as they please, what does the mountain care?

Ah, but a man’s reach should exceed his grasp, 
Or what’s a heaven for?